Wednesday 13 August 2008

I know

I believe in God, I mean you know he is pretty cool right? But sometimes I get worries and doubts.
I'm sitting in my room praying.......
God, are you there? Are you there god? are you listening?
Hey, God can you hear me? Are you even here?
Yeah, I know you are.

But God, God what about that time, that time when I was little, you know,
were you there then? God were you with me?
And as I got older and it hurt, it hurt so bad, did it hurt you too?
And when I cried, all those times I cried God, did you really know what each one meant? Every tear?
And sometimes, when I felt ok, but didn't think I should have, was that you comforting me God?
Yeah, I know it was.

God, you know when I spoke to those people, were you there?
Did you know how scared I was? How confused?
Was it because of you that when I felt all of those emotions building up inside me, at the same time I also felt peace?
Yeah, I know it was.

But God, can I trust you? I mean really trust you?
Are you sure your going to be there for me? because sometimes, sometimes God I feel that you're not, I feel that you're gone.
But then you come back, you come back stronger than before, you come back all guns blazing, you come back and you fill my heart with a passion, a passion for you and a passion.....for your people.

So i open my heart to you God, and i give my life to you, I put it in your hands for you to hold and care for.
But I get scared, what if i get hurt again? what if i get let down again? what if i end up on my own again?

But, hang on, how can I be alone again?
You gave me a new life, You gave me new friends, a new home, You gave me a new family and You gave me love.

But God, God do you actually love me?
Yeah, I guess I know that as well.