Every one has problems in their lives, especially when your a teenager, all your emotions are everywhere and you tend to make a big deal out of something that isn't even worth worrying about!! And teenagers deal with their problems in different ways, some take drugs, some go out and have sex with alot of people, some drink alcohol and some probably do all three. The thing i used was alcohol. I started with asking my parents to buy me a big bottle of lambrini when they went shopping and stupidly they did, and i kept asking every week. Sometimes i would have 2 bottle a week, each probably lasting only 2 days. I would just sit there in my room at night watching TV and guzzling down lambrini. Then, the next day i would have some before school and i would even take some with me in a plastic bottle. After a while i started drinking cider as well and i would do the same with that. I started going out on the weekends with people from my estate and we would just sit around at night drinking, just beer and cider to start with, then i started filling up plastic bottle with vodka that was in a cupboard in my house and we drank that. And then, things really started getting to me alot and i just wanted them to be blocked out and what i was drinking then wasn't doing much because i still went home pretty much sober, so i took a bottle of white rum (it was only 1/3 full) from the cupboard, filled the rest of it with coke and went out on the weekend. Nobody else wanted any of it, so i sat there drinking the whole bottle on my own while they had cider or something. I can just about remember finishing the bottle and then smashing it on a rock (dont know why i did that), but after that i don't remember anything else. Afterwards i found out that i had been taken onto a hill by the people i was with so that they could try and sober me up, i had been dragged down the hill by my dad, i had run home (just about) and locked myself in my bedroom and then thrown up all over the floor and my bed. I had also fallen over everywhere and had various cuts and bruises all over my arms and legs, and i had also said things about one of my friends, which when i heard them i knew that i didn't mean them, but i had no control over what i was saying, or anything else.
Looking back on all of this now i can see how stupid i was and i know that it didn't help at all. There was something that i need in my life to help me with my problems and at the time the only thing there was, was alcohol, now that's different. Now i have God in my life and i can turn to him instead. If only people my age knew that there was another way, a better way to deal with things. If only they could see that the other ways that they are using aren't helping them. If only they knew that there is someone who cares about what they're going through and that He can help.
So this week i'm praying for Jesus to enter the lives of people my age, to help them with their struggles and for them to realise that there is another way.
Wednesday 23 May 2007
Monday 21 May 2007
Random
I didn't know what i could blog about so i thought i would just post this. I used to love this song when i was younger!!!
Thursday 10 May 2007
Paris
Well where shall I start?
It was absolutely amazing!!! I had been counting down for 250 days and now I have finally been!
We left at 3am on Friday and travelled all day on a coach, stopping at various service stations and getting a ferry at some point as well. When we got near where we were staying, we got caught in traffic, and by this time everyone was really fed up about being stuck on a coach for hours on end! Then, when we finally arrived, at about 6pm, it was pouring with rain and there was thunder and lightening! So it wasn’t a good start, but that was only day one!
On Saturday we went to Disneyland all day! We had so much fun. Me and Amy (my friend) didn’t go on many rides, because we spent most of the day taking funny photos and then shopping! We had our pictures taken with Mickey Mouse, Belle and the Prince (Beauty and the Beast) and Tweedle Dum, Tweedle Dee and The Mad Hatter! They were so cool!!
When we got back to the château where we were staying, we had a disco and karaoke; it was really funny because all the teachers sang! And I did as well, which was scary but really good at the same time, everyone was cheering and singing along and then afterwards they were saying that they were surprised because they didn’t think that I was ‘the singing type’, but they said that I was really good, and a lot of the compliments came from the most unexpected people, so that was cool!
On Sunday we went to the Musée Du Louvre and we saw the statue of Aphrodite (Vénus de Milo – who was supposed to be the image of the perfect woman!) and the Mona Lisa. After that we went to the Eiffel Tower and it was amazing! It was really funny too, because while the teachers were getting the tickets to go up, we were waiting with our tour guide, Paula, and she got us all to sing this Tarzan song, with actions, really loud! So we were standing there, all 46 of us, at the bottom of the Eiffel Tower, with loads of people around us, probably looking really silly, but it was so much fun, people were even taking pictures of us and clapping at the end!!
The view from the top was breath taking, it was just so beautiful! I had waited so long to be there and believe me it was worth the wait!
At the château we had something called the have a go show, which involved us doing different challenges, people had to do some funny things, including bum writing! By the end of it most of us (including me) were covered in yogurt or water or both!!
On Monday we went to a huge hyper market and then travelled home, I was so tired! The ferry on the way back was horrible, the water was really rough and I felt so sick! We got back at about 11:30pm and I went to sleep at about 1am, and then had to get up to go to school in the morning!!
We sang loads of songs on the coach it was funny, the teachers said that we were the best group that they’ve taken and our coach driver loves us to bits!! He had so much fun too!
It was all so fantastic and it was sad to have to come home! I can’t until I’m in year 12 when I get to go again! There is only one word to describe the experience, Inoubliable, which means Unforgettable!!
Check out my photos!
It was absolutely amazing!!! I had been counting down for 250 days and now I have finally been!
We left at 3am on Friday and travelled all day on a coach, stopping at various service stations and getting a ferry at some point as well. When we got near where we were staying, we got caught in traffic, and by this time everyone was really fed up about being stuck on a coach for hours on end! Then, when we finally arrived, at about 6pm, it was pouring with rain and there was thunder and lightening! So it wasn’t a good start, but that was only day one!
On Saturday we went to Disneyland all day! We had so much fun. Me and Amy (my friend) didn’t go on many rides, because we spent most of the day taking funny photos and then shopping! We had our pictures taken with Mickey Mouse, Belle and the Prince (Beauty and the Beast) and Tweedle Dum, Tweedle Dee and The Mad Hatter! They were so cool!!
When we got back to the château where we were staying, we had a disco and karaoke; it was really funny because all the teachers sang! And I did as well, which was scary but really good at the same time, everyone was cheering and singing along and then afterwards they were saying that they were surprised because they didn’t think that I was ‘the singing type’, but they said that I was really good, and a lot of the compliments came from the most unexpected people, so that was cool!
On Sunday we went to the Musée Du Louvre and we saw the statue of Aphrodite (Vénus de Milo – who was supposed to be the image of the perfect woman!) and the Mona Lisa. After that we went to the Eiffel Tower and it was amazing! It was really funny too, because while the teachers were getting the tickets to go up, we were waiting with our tour guide, Paula, and she got us all to sing this Tarzan song, with actions, really loud! So we were standing there, all 46 of us, at the bottom of the Eiffel Tower, with loads of people around us, probably looking really silly, but it was so much fun, people were even taking pictures of us and clapping at the end!!
The view from the top was breath taking, it was just so beautiful! I had waited so long to be there and believe me it was worth the wait!
At the château we had something called the have a go show, which involved us doing different challenges, people had to do some funny things, including bum writing! By the end of it most of us (including me) were covered in yogurt or water or both!!
On Monday we went to a huge hyper market and then travelled home, I was so tired! The ferry on the way back was horrible, the water was really rough and I felt so sick! We got back at about 11:30pm and I went to sleep at about 1am, and then had to get up to go to school in the morning!!
We sang loads of songs on the coach it was funny, the teachers said that we were the best group that they’ve taken and our coach driver loves us to bits!! He had so much fun too!
It was all so fantastic and it was sad to have to come home! I can’t until I’m in year 12 when I get to go again! There is only one word to describe the experience, Inoubliable, which means Unforgettable!!
Check out my photos!
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